Just A Change

I always cling,
when I know it'll end,
because that's how much I spend,
go ahead and swing,
but my feet never stay in one in place,

constantly thinking,
All I do is think about my life,
play according to,
I say I'll change,
but I never did,

never saw how much I'd cling,
who I'd cling to,
now I'm broken from them,
I swear on this day,
the anniversary of my dead,

I just changed,
from a broken heart,
to a broken lost lover,
from a dependent innocent,
to an independent lady,

I never saw it til now,
I'll never wear that old frown,
keep moving around,
the next thing I see is them,
but now I stand with my own feet,

I just changed,
from demented paranoia,
to dark asphyxiation,
from a drowning soul,
to a complete soldier,

step my way,
we'll see who will pay,
my mind set changed,
if of importance I'm still me,
just more me,

test me,
tie me down,
I'll never die or drown,
a chance was lost,
I'm just lost soldier,

command me,
dare stand by me,
it's trouble worth a fight,
commended orders I follow,

I am soft,
hardened,
irreplaceable,
unobtainable,
unforgettable,

the existence I breed,
it is my own,
the orders I follow,
are yours commander,
my tounge is tied down,

my knee's will never be weak again,
my heart never given away again,
my words be my own,
my eyes my own,
this strength I fuel,

I just changed,
from annoying sadness,
to quiet sickness,
from a slow dependent,
to a strong independent,

I'm changed inside and out,
you'll see,
a thousand strikes of lighting,
ready to go off,
contained inside,