Fear

Fear drips from your mind. The feelings that darkness can make you consume is all to real. Fear of being alone, of the darkness, what you can't see, the fear of fear itself. Your heart races and your mind speeds through everything dark and solemn. It's nothing anyone else can understand. You can be accused of being scared, wanting attention, or of just being crazy. No one else can understand the fact that it's beyond real....that it's living hell. But you can try to push it away, or make others stay, make others understand. They can't understand unless it's something they experience.

It's like the fear runs around your neck and suffocates you with helplessness and stranded feelings. You can't tell anyone because they can't understand how it feel. It grips you and squeezes but they can't see because they don't believe. You an feel it numbing your body...you can feel it all around can't you? Like it will never leave you, like it's always there, like you can't escape anything right? There's nothing to hold onto as everything tightens around you.

If I gave you my hand could you take it if I helped? No one else may understand. I know it's hell when no one will listen or understand, I know it's tough to understand why it happens. But if we could stop for a minute and acknowledge how much I know about it and understand the same feelings would you still feel alone? If I told you that I'd stay here day and night to make sure you where alright would it help?


Questions you can't answer and questions I shouldn't ask. But within darkness is un knowing displeasure in things we can't see, hear, or possibly know about. Fear itself is an unimaginable darkness that sets in like water in the ocean...it always moves and conquers unless something can keep pushing forward past it. But it's not that easy unless you have no fear, fear can control you and how you think.

Don't give up my angel. Your not alone and you won't ever be. Let's stepped into the light so you can smile. Don't feel bad angel, You can't let it control you. It's not that easy but you can't give up, don't look down, look around and find some light. It's not easy to be beat but it's not impossible. A spark of happiness in the dark can light up your room even if it's pitch black. I know because I've been there, I still experience it. Sometimes I can't beat it but I know you can...I know you can win a fight.

Anguish is harder to fight because it can come from anywhere. But know your not alone in the dark, If I have to i'll sit beside you to help you. But don't worry about anything but yourself for now. If the point is your scared and you can't seem to shake the feelings that make you feel terrible then take a deep breath and think of everything good you have....if that doesn't help then let me say I won't stop trying until the feelings are gone completely.

No one may understand then me. It's hard to believe but I understand completely. I want to help, I'll try to help, it may not be any good, but I will try for you to help you every way I can.

It's not about me helping you, it's not about you feeling alone. It's about the fear....of it all. Something no one else can understand but I.